lost in crowd

hey you all wonderful ppl..these rains are making me an emotional wreck lolzz..
its so serene n calm just the rains and u but y the mind wanders in the past..y the loneliness of it all grips u wen u shud just njoy the rains 4 whch u waited 4 whole screeching hot summer..y cant one just make plans just lyk any other happy sunny days..y do the rains make u penseive..kuch toh jhol hai..ya u do njoy the showers bt aftr a while one just starts pondering abt the tyms wid friends,years gone by about the best days n the worst..all of it comes pouring down onto u just like the never ending rains..
the scientist hav cum up wid an xplanation 4 it lyk they do 4 all the things under the sun...they say its just u dnt get top c d sunlight nd it effects the receptive part of the brain ...sunlight stimulates hope and something something that constitutes good and happy thots they term this sulky attitude that the rains bring as S.A.D syndrome...
but i say savour this for mayb in a long tym after the eventful summer ur subconcious was full and the rains r giving u a chance to review it..even the nature thinks that way...listen to songs sad or romantic..read a buk..sit by the window and with each passing raindrop ul see ur lyf in flashback..and for all those who r unaffected guys raindance lolzzzz...

scientific info bhi mil gayi fukat main ..but log apprecite bhi nahi karteyy(oops gettng sulky again ...sorry its the rains nt mee..lolzzzz)

scribbled during our so called engg lecture way bk in SE

look how the time is flowing out of my hands,
no matter how hard i try it never seems to stand,
i want it to stop when i ask it to,and
move faster when i need it to but
you know time it makes no promises that are hard to keep..
long lost are the days which i want to relive again
what lies ahead i dont know but they say
it some kind of a major plan...
all i do is just be a mute witness a traveller all alone by mysef
in this endearing and marvellous journey called life
and yes time is flowing still as it always will ;
provoking me to tink again what lies ahead....
ps: now looking at the poem or so to say today morning in my se buk while clearing the mess of my cupboard(i tell u jitna bhi thk karo 15 days main wapas waisa hi ho jata hai sob sob...)i cudnt help coming out wid the actua meaning of the lines written above...so u wana knw the actual sentiments behind writing the above lines plz read the following points

1.time flowing irony hai coz lecture agar half an hour ka ho tym xtra slow hota hai...its written just to give hope ki ye tym bhi gujar jaaega..

2.tym never stands still na lyk on birthdays,outings,gud movie n stuffs

3.tym fast jana chahiye boring lectures main,wen sum 1 is repremanding u 4 day dreaming lolzz

4.hmmm long lost days nt really
se year didnt knw wat lyf is all about...had tym of my life in the last two years..

5.the major plan nw is to hav a gud job with sat n sunday off.so i can write such stupid stuff lolzz..

6.mute witness lolzzz ye jyada ho gaya im never mute xcept 4 a gud movie,gud conversationalist,reading a buk n sleepng..

7.traveller to main hun hi vashi k teen malls nd tym itna thoda ...lolzz

8.n i thnk mera creativity badhane main lol lol mgm k teachers ka bahut bada haath hai
u c itna bada poem main kahan likh pati agar lecture boring na hota u knw iski wajah se i hv made a zone in my mind whch i frequently visit wen lectures n things get toooooooooooo ewwwwww...(ps:i made a very gud use of my mind ka creative zone while tds course in college...minal,nima,neha wud testify lolzzzzzzzzzzzzz))))))))


agar upar ka sab pakau laga to ..i ....
dnt care....lolzzzzzzz

pressure cooker.



Hello my dear patient,some angry some happy readers..here im back after my unintentional,unpredictable long sabbatical from blogging.

and as they say the wise speak only when there something impotant to be said...mindlessblabbering is not hard to find lolzz
(i knw khud ki bahut taarif kar li but ppl i need to marketise my blog u see.i hav to instill in my readers that whatever follows in the blog
is worth their time...hmmm however their perception after reading might change lolzz ..)so enough of my marketing strategy
coming downt to the blog itself to cater to your intellectual appetite




last month was really a busy 1 what with the annual sports and cultural festivities..in all that running around i didnt have time to contemplate
things around me ..was just njoyng the last and best fest of my life with people who really matter to me..
but after all the superb things my life has again selled into the less interesting part of college lyf last minute assignments and
'mukhdarshan' of teachers i dint knw existed lolzz!!!
in all these routine mundane stuff something that brought me out of it was the aptiude test of my 1o year old cousin.its a reality people
they have a aptitude test for kids as small as him an even younger.

so here is a boy all of 10 preparing for an aptitude test days after his final xams..to add to absurdity of it all the portion
the same is the class he is giving aptitude for ie portion of 5th std while this kid is in 4th
he goes gives the test comes out with stoies of new toys,the shiny pencilbox a kid sitting next to him had..and the paper
haan likha hai maine was the answer



on the day of results as expected almost 98% of the total kids who gavve the test were listed as eneligible..there was an air of
sadness,frustrations and broken expectations about the hopefull parents of those kids..my cousin and his parents were among
such parents..

my cousin cried because he could not understand why and hows of it all..who could xplain to the poor
child that just the need to learn is not considered enough...these school authorities will bend and break all rules
to suit themselves let the new rules of education be damned.we will not allow education to be available to all
,though we make hell lot of money via donations and unexplained fees hikes with each passing semester,we will not make more classroom
we will keep such things like entrance to eliminate the kids and will give admissions only to those who is profitable to the institution
either in terms of higly intelligent or the very rich the in betweeners be damned..


what these authorities forget that however high and expensive their walls are ppl will rise from unexpected areas.
history is spilled with names of ppl who made a mark withourt ever getting proper education
einstein is a classic example..so i tell my cousin ..

now coming to a close of this long blog i recommend all u ppl out der do hear the pink floyyd no-another
brick in the wall to get my point straight.. ciao till the next blog.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

what goes around comes around...

hello my dear readers...sorry for keeping you all away from another big dose of muft gyaan from the past 15 days...lolzzz (do i hear oh no !koi toh pakane aa gaya wapas...lolzz).before i begin this blog of mine i want to apologise to my fellow blogger Miss Mind contemplation for not being able to come to the awesome seminar held last friday but as life would hav it there is 1 more seminar tommorow yipeeee.... but seriously i had some genuine reasons for not turning up...unlike some people who give lame reasons like are nahi yaar bore ho raha hai...(wat the duck..)so i can be excused wat say??...

now here is the thing i came up with this new blog idea last wednesday while listening to the beautiful song by Mr.justin timberlake(what goes around comes back around...hmmm superb song!).this song of his got me thinking that how true these words are indeed..you reap what you sow..always .

case study 1:you are a loner,cynic,always finding a reason to complaint.but you want everybody to like and adore while you continue being sulky and sour

outcome:hello wake up! you wil definitely be avoided,blah blah blah.and this cycle will continue.

case study 2:you try and care for others,you are kind and understanding,want genuine happiness for yourself and your near ones

outcome:dhan tan nan you wil find more reasons in everyday life to cherish,look forward to.in all happiness will find you.

but one thing is to be kept in mind you will not always meet people who are good,kind,generous be practical yaar because there are all kinds of people in this world...but the main idea is not to let their negative ,hopeless attitude get to you..cause what you give is what you get..

now hum sab movies dekhte hain...you know ki hero is shown to be the good guy,naughty but with a heart of gold inside,loved by everyone he knows...and then there is the villain to make life hell for the hero...but the hero always wins in the end... happy ending, a fairy tale thing some would say reality is far from that..i seriously beg to differ,because the moment the hero faces hurdles and all he too like every one else gets depressed,sad and willowy.but he has in him what we must strive for each passing day ,not to give in,the power the faith to do the things that are right and good.he keeps the faith that all is going to end well because that was the bigger plan.he rises like a phoenix and voila the villain however powerful gets busted,the hero is here to stay.

so why give up on doing good things,coz like in the movies watever you do really does come back to you..its upto u whether you want to be the hero or the villain .good karma however small will definitely come back to you..dont stop beleiving in the power of doing good.and one more thing to get your brain absorb the above mentioned thing recall how do you feel after helping some 1 ,being nice to some1,acha lagta hai na... and now compare it to the feeling of being purposely rude to some1..im sure no1 likes that feeling...right.so guys why not try and do things that makes us and others feel good barabar na??so have faith in the good you do it will surely come back to you when you need it the most.

ps:if itna explain karne k baad bhi nahi samjha toh guys pre primary school main admission le lena.to the others ...ciao till the next blog.

forgive n forget

hey fellas here iam bk again wid another topic whch is rather close to my heart....for this forgive n forget funda is wat gets u going on a gloomy day.here i was a teenager wid my share of problems be it studies,frnds k saath misunderstandngs,parents se arguments....and 4 all those thngs i wud lyk every1 else blame sum1 else 4 it...but i realised in dng that i still had the hurt fresh in my mind,while i blamed sum1 or no1 in particular 4 all the thngs that wer gng wrong in my lyf i still couldnt erase them 4m my mind.however hard i tried to make sum 1 else responsible 4 my own misery i still cudnt run away 4m mine..
but then as always lyf gives u the answer in the most simplest of forms while ur busy searchng the whole stack of hay.i came across an article abt sum gr8 personality telling (i dnt remember the name guys..sorry 4 my bad memory...) abt the healing power of forgiveness...heading padhte hi laga bahut hi-fi philosophy lagti hai certainly nt 4 me...(dats the way v teenagers r rite??...) but sumthng struck a chord an i began readng it ignorng my earlier dumb conclusion altogether..and here i found a few golden words ki forgiveness nt only reedeems the criminal but also liberates the soul of the victim...(bahut jyaada ho gaya na...lol) meaning ki agar aap ko koi hurt kare let it b any1 unless an until aap use forgive nahi kar saktey u keep the hurt alive inside...and wen u forgive dat person u do a favor to urself..dan to the 1 who caused u hurt..
and 4m dat moment i hav tried to incorporate dat thng in my lyf to forgive and to forget...cause lyf is too short to keep grudges ,,y all the negative thots wen u deseve to hav all the happy thots in the world...secondly here im not encouraging takn nonsense behaviour 4m ppl and become a toe rug no no ..im just saying ki wen u feel dat if the relation u share wid the person who hurt u is important enough dan dont let any such differences cum in between,also communication plays an important role.make others realise ki u hav been hurt..giv em a chance atleast to apologise..coz ppl in general r gud inside however tough,insensitive they might luk 4m the outside..
but again even if this funda of forgiveness doesnt reap results so ppl use the forgettng part..ppl who even aftr tellng and considering dont change dan god bless them...its not upto u to try n go out of ur way 4 dem..let it go.but in doing dat again keep nothng against such ppl...socho ki it was never meant to be dats it to it..
and thirdly if the person hurtng u is another bully who gets satisfaction in makng lyf hell 4 ppl.dan my dear readers omit the part written above 4m ur memory an use ur best punch in the face...ha ha
ps:the writer wishes to mention dat she is a supporter of non violence(i kno a hell lot of u wud want to disagree wid this ...lolzz)...any injury to any person aftr readng this blog is not the responsibility of the writer..take care and b safe guys till the next blog ....

first and foremost b4 i start wid my blog i wanna thank all my frnds especially those who hav encoraged me to strt a blog(pata nahi sab sach boley ya aise hi chane k jhaad pe chadhaya mujhe...lolzz) watever here im an emotional fool lyk always strtng my very own blog .
hmm so they say 1 writes stuff tht 1 strngly feels abt bt i say ki strng feelngs toh itni saari hain ki u knw tym n space kam pad jaaega ...lyk hw i strngly feel ki kaash colg lyf khatam na ho,saare professor discipline ka lectr na dete hue subject padhaye,edward cullen mujhse shaadi kar le...lol,har month apna 1 mini iv trip ho,hemant,onkar,haneesh,mojo mujhe kam chidhaye lolzz,hum sab ko job apney marks k basis pe nahi individual talent k basis pe miley,rahul gandhi k saath 1 meeting ho jaye...the list of the thngs i strngly feel abt is jst endless....bt in all these jumbled thngs der is 1 thng dat really tops the list these days whch i knw each n every1 dreads bt never admit the inevetible end of our college days.end of our engg.
the piercing pain i feel even wen i type dese words takes me by surprise coz its such an unbearable thot of havin all of it gone ,lost in some hazy memory of the past wen all u can thnk of is ki kab subah hogi n kab colg jaaengey.hw unnatural is dat ki v al r so regular in colg 4 all together a diffrtnt reasons dan others who go go der to study v go der to a second family jinkey saath hastey,mazaak kartey hue din kab khatam ho jata hai pata hi nahin chalta...haan padhai bhi ho hi jaati hai apni isi mein...lolzzz. hum sab ki awkward frndship wen v wer all new to engg lyf,kuch se panga,kuch teachers se jhol,assignments ki le den mein ,drawng k long practical hrs ,freshers party ,fest k anticipation,results k rone dhone mein kts k bhoj ne hum sab ko 1 saath laya n as v all became more n more familiar to the ways of engg v also made such bonds of frndship whch r gona stay strng 4 a lyf tym.
till last year i used to ask the seniors hw do they feel ki unki colg lyf khatam hone wali hai.....every1 gave me the same answer ki tym kab khatam ho gaya pata hi nahi chala...colg khatam nahi hona chahiye...n today i stand at the same position as dem n my thots echo the same feeling as them k itna jaldi kaise khatam hone wala hai engg...i guess wen u live each n everyday to the fullest its hard to beleive otherwise.
so here v all r standing at an important juncture of our lives whr 1 thng is gona end bt that too is important ,this change is relevant important n necesary .n as they say in lyf only change is peramanent v hav no control ovr it watsoever but the thnng that v do hav full control over is the fact that v remain frnds 4 ever,try n b in contact as much as possible 4 sumthngs in lyf never chng like the bond between true friends and dat is wat i hope n pray 4 each passing day that v all hav each other in our lives in gud tyms as well as bad . but b4 the end of it v do hav 1 semester left whch im really lukng forward to , i hope this sem turns out to b the best sem of our engg so far.lets take change in our stride n live this sem to the fullestand let this end indeed mark a new beginning 4 each 1 of us .so here is a heart felt appeal to all my frnds out der b4 this sem ends guys n gals remain in touch and a strict warning to all my close frnds forgettng abt me is injurious to ur health ...
ps:hmm the writer is a emotional fool as mentioned above,the writer is quite serious abt the warning part that she gave to her close frnds take her seriously if u want peace of mind...lolz n yes pehal blaog agar acha nahi laga toh its nt the writers mistake coz this was her first ... the writer thanx all those ppl who hav reachd this line readng all the nonsense written above writer appreciates ur level patience of putting up wid it ...and finally the writer stops
ps ps: hey do i hear a sigh of releif????? (haan haan thik hai thik hai!)